Showing posts with label Life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Life. Show all posts

1/16/2014

reading and e-readers

I've owned a Kindle for several years now, and I love it. But after an initial period where I tried to move all my reading to the kindle, I'm dialing back a bit. Any new technology not only enables us to do new kinds of things, but also changes how we act - our behavior patterns and habits (John Dyer has a great discussion of these things in From the Garden to the City). E-readers make some things much easier than paper books, but they also make some things harder, so that they tend to change how you read in subtle ways. This is not a bad thing, but it is important to be aware of it so that you can make conscious, informed decisions about how you read rather than just falling into the patterns suggested by a particular new way of reading.

Some things that e-readers are not very good at:
  • Reading books you want to have a relationship with. There are certain books that you read over and over again, that you curl up with, that you scribble in the margins, that helped you get through a difficult time, for which re-reading gives you a familiar, comforting sense of place - "I'm home". There are some books you live in and with - a Bible, a prayer book, etc. You can never have this kind of relationship with an ebook because it is disembodied. You can still underline and make notes in an ebook, but the personality is not there - in fact I've stopped making notes at all because I found them difficult to access (on my device anyway; it might be easier on a touch-screen reader), more time-consuming to enter, and not very helpful for those reasons.
  • Studying a book. You lose a sense of place in a book; cross-referencing what you are reading with a previous section might take just a few seconds in a paper book. In an e-book you will not do it because it is too hard to find the section you are thinking of. Ebooks do have full-text search, but even so it is more trouble and there is a nagging worry about whether or not you'll be able to get back to where you were when you're done cross-references, simply because there is no sense of place in the text.
  • Saving you money. It is true that e-books are generally a little cheaper than a new copy of a book; but not by much. And if you are really price-conscious, used copies of books can be had on Amazon for less than the price of an e-book almost all the time. The exception is public-domain texts, which I'll get to in the next section.
  • Owning a book. All ebook stores currently have very similar licensing: you are purchasing a non-transferable, revokable license to read the book; you are not actually purchasing the book itself. Your rights are severely limited compared to paper books: you cannot re-sell it or even give it away; you have limited (legal) choices about how and on what devices to read your books; your right to the book could even be revoked at any time (this is rare, of course, but Amazon has done it).
  • Having a conversation about a book. Because paper books have covers, other people can see what you're reading. This can be a conversation-starter around the house, in a coffee shop, in an airplane, etc. When I'm reading an e-book it could be Plato or a romance novel for all anyone else can tell (which, incidentally, is why romance novels are so popular as ebooks). This could be a good thing or a bad thing depending on what you're looking for.
They are very good, on the other hand, at:
  • Reading novels or any book that you intend to read straight-through, front-to-back. I do find kindle reading very immersive; it is easy to get lost in what you're reading and this fits well with novels which tend to draw you in. Long novels are especially compelling; Robert Jordan's Wheel of Time books are a fantastic argument for a kindle. I find that this covers about half the things I want to read; but my reading tends toward the academic and for most people it would probably cover a significantly higher percentage.
  • Reading older public-domain texts that are hard to obtain, out of print, or only available in expensive editions. There is a lot of really good content that can be obtained for free or very inexpensively. Free versions, though, are generally very poorly formatted. Usually I prefer to spend a few dollars on a version that has better formatting.
I still love my kindle, but I'm putting more thought into trying to use it for the kind of reading it is good at, and not for the kind of reading it isn't.

6/20/2007

No PhD for You!

In April I received a letter informing me that my application to the PhD program in Computer Science at UCI had been denied. This was pretty disappointing, as I had really been looking forward to it.

But it forced a time of self-examination that I am really grateful for. I had to decide whether to spend the next year working to improve my qualifications and apply again, or to take this as a "no" and move on. The decision was one of the most difficult ones I've ever made, and it took a long time. There were good reasons to choose both paths.

Working on a PhD would be incredibly rewarding. It would allow me to do something challenging and intellectually stimulating in the intersection between computer science and biology. I love both fields. It would let me participate in some really exciting work going on right now, and contribute to what I think is a coming revolution in how we do biology. Academics is part of who I am, and this would allow me to exercise that part. It would re-orient my work around something I am really passionate about. Also, a lot of my thinking has been moving in this direction for the past 2 years during my Masters. Not getting a PhD would mean leaving behind unformed thoughts, ideas, promising projects, and half-finished journal notes. It would mean leaving a part of my life that I have grown to sincerely enjoy in a very abrupt, unfinished state.

But there are other considerations. Emily and I feel strongly that our first calling is to family. The question for us has never been whether to focus on family or my schooling, but if we could fit my schooling into our family. And a lot of factors would make that difficult to do. First, the delay: assuming I could improve my application enough to get accepted to a graduate program, I wouldn't start until fall '08. That means finishing a year later, which almost certainly means one extra year of PhD work with 3 kids. And, as Emily pointed out to me, we could conceivably have 4 before I was finished.

Jonathan would be at least 6 years old, and we would be home-schooling him. If I'm not working on a PhD I can be much more involved in that process. For example, I'd like to set aside a significant chunk of time for developing a philosophy of education: both at a high level (what is education?) and a low level (how does it apply to a hyperactive first-grader?). I'd also like to teach him Latin eventually, but I can't do that unless I become at least familiar with it. That would take time.

Also, PhD work is really grueling. Long hours are expected, and that would leave me feeling very torn. It would certainly place some stress on my marriage and leave me with less time for Emily and the kids. Money would be very tight, as well.

But the primary thing that I feel is threatened by a PhD is my holiness. My last quarter at UCI, especially, I was sort of in survival mode: eat, sleep, work, make it through a token Bible chapter in the morning, and that was about it. This Lent, especially, when I gave up science, I remembered what I had been missing. And since then I have spent much more time in prayer and Bible reading. I'm making a concerted, purposeful effort to be close to Jesus. I feel more like a monk than I have in quite a while.

So, after a few months of prayer and discussion with Emily and others, I've decided that it would be best for my family and my soul to not pursue a PhD right now. I won't pretend that I'm not secretly hoping to be able to come back to it someday. Or that I'm not a little sad at giving up such a dream. But sacrifice is a part of living well, and I'm also excited about the challenge ahead of ordering my life, simplifying, and re-orienting it around the most important things right now: my family and my journey toward holiness.

2/21/2007

Thomas Nathanael Moothart

Our second son was born Saturday, Feb. 10 at midnight-30 in Whittier Presbyterian hospital, weighing a healthy 7 lbs. 11 oz.

The birth story is long, convoluted, and more stressful than anyone's ought to be. Either Emily or I will get around to posting it sometime soon. For now the best source of new pictures and information on Thomas is at her blog. But here are a few that I have on hand: